Friday Letters

  Hallelujah, finally this has been the longest 4 day work week ever.  Big plans this weekend!  Coffee on Saturday with my ladies and Sunday laundry and hanging out at my sister's!  Oh and meeting our photographer!  Dear hubs:  I know this week has been tough, and I've been a little punchy, thank you for being there for me!  Dear sissy!  We had a blast last weekend, and looking forward to many more things this summer! I'm so incredibly lucky to have you for a sister!  Dear Saturday:  I can not wait for you to get here! Coffee date with my girls! Dear Sunday:  Pool time and laying out with my sister! Dear middle of June:  I'm so ready for you to get here!  Jason's parents will be here soon! I'm so ready for a vacation!
Dear LB and Bailey:  You've both been really good this week, maybe you'll be rewarded with a trip to G-Mom's even though she's not here!  The yard is calling your names! Dear hubs since you always deserve two!  Thank you for agreeing to do pictures one more time!  I know how much you hate it!

Things I Love Thursday...Clothing Edition

Because I have some total clothing envy lately there is a whole board that I have devoted to "Clothing Envy" on Pinterest...Follow me, Maybe?

SO What Wednesday...

It's the first time I'll be linking up in a very very long time!  
So what:
That I thought today was Thursday all day?
That I was supposed to be on a plane right now for Vegas, with all of my friends
That I miss my iPhone more and more each day
That I haven't taken the dogs for a walk lately.  
That I really  miss cupcakes
That I've been really stressed out lately and that I just want to spend all of my free hours in bed.  
That of course since I sold my camera I've had 4 people contact me about pictures.  
That I really really want a vacation...

Random Acts of Kindness...

So last week, I entered a contest on facebook to win a free photo shoot with Twin Bowers Photography here in Maryland.  GUESS WHAT?!?!  I won!  Woot Woot!  Jason's not so happy about this win, but it's ok!
So I was speaking to Ashley, the photographer, on Monday night about meeting up and discussing what we're looking for.  She told me that someone (a friend of mine) had contacted her and paid for an upgrade for us.     So instead of a 30 minute session, it's now an hour, and instead of 5 pictures on a cd, it's now 25.  If you know me you know that I hate surprises...This one however, I love!   Although, I'm going totally crazy!  I wish I knew who it was.  I want to be able to say thank you!   But instead of saying thank you, I've decided that I'm going to pay it forward.     So this is where you guys come in!  Can you help me figure out what to do, to help me pay it forward?  What are some of your favorite RAK? 

Finally...A Sneak Peek

When Jason and I first started talking in 2010, I never in my life would have thought that less than a year later, we would be married.  And that now together we have lost over 300 pounds together.  It's a great feeling.  It's amazing to share how far we've come and where it is that we're going.  I know that now, looking back everything else was wrong and I have it completely right with him.  

I won't lie.  Things have been hard since Jason had surgery.  Between losing his job, being denied unemployment we've almost lost our home more than once.  And now finally that he has an amazing job, it is possible that there isn't enough work to keep their 5 employees working more than a couple days a week.  Jason desperately needs new clothes.  I feel horrible that we can't provide them for him. Regardless of all of the bad, I can't imagine my life without him.  I can't imagine not standing up next to him.  Holding his hand or being his proud wife.  He makes me complete.  I see him in my future, I see him next to me as we grow old together and I'm so proud of him.  

With all that being said.  We finally took some progress pictures.  I am almost one year out from my Gastric Bypass Surgery.  I've lost 153 pounds (with another very grueling stall) And Jason has lost a total of 131 pounds.  (See I'm a proud wife)  I'm very excited to see where we end up and hopefully one day (soon) you'll be seeing pictures of us with a little one! 

Also, these were the last pictures taken with my camera before I sold it.  I've been very blessed to have my sister take these pictures for us, and then I take them home to edit them...Hopefully, when another camera is purchased in the future, I'll be able to do the same for her and her family!

So without anymore words from me, here's our pictures..

   There are some added pictures of my adorable niece and nephew in the pictures too.  They are my heart and truly what has gotten me through this time right now.  

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I've been blank the past couple days.  The first of May always hits me a little harder every year.  And this year is no exception.  Things have been extra hard right now.  I just sold my camera.  (A camera worth $400 for $200) I cried a little on my way home from dropping it off to the new owner.  Photography has always been my creative outlet.  It's something that I enjoy, something that I may not be great at, but I'm working at being great at.       From my last post last week...Infertility Awareness is hitting close to home for me this week. Not last week.  On April 30, 2001 I lost my angel.  I was 4 months pregnant, and totally heart broken.  I have posted about it a long time ago, but since deleted it.  It's too hard to keep up.     I'm very rapidly approaching 1 year of being a Post Op from RNY Gastric Bypass Surgery!  Be on the lookout for a V-Log very very soon!       We took progress pictures over the weekend last weekend...That will be in a separate post.   Mother's Day is coming!  My sister and I are going to Boordy Vineyards to a picnic on Saturday before.     My mom is leaving on Tuesday after for California.       Work has been going well...very busy :)  everything is looking up on the home front.  And hopefully things will be much better in the next couple of months!  (Financial Freedom!)   The best thing that I can say that will make any of this make sense.     Regardless if you're going through the hardest of times, put a smile on your face and don't let the world see what is getting you down.  Your problems are yours.  I have very few close friends that know the extent of what I'm going through.  I keep it that way for a reason.  Bitches judge, and bitches talk.  And I'm not down for it.  So...with that being said I'm full of sunshine and unicorn's rainbow farts.   And that's all I have for now!      

Infertility Awareness.

I'm sure in the blogging world and in the real world if you're struggling with trying to start a family you're not a stranger to National Infertility Awareness Week.        I am no stranger to the longing that many women have...I've always wanted to be a mother.  After a couple of heart-wrenching miscarriages, gaining 150+ pounds and finally meeting Prince Charming I'm in the boat of trying to start a family again.  We've done the stop trying so much it'll just happen on it's own.  I resorted to Weight Loss Surgery as a last resort.  After losing the 150 pounds that I gained after failed relationships and lack of self worth, I'm finally healthy and actively trying to have a baby.       It will always ring in the back of my head the years of trying and nothing.  (Maybe I was with the wrong partner--There's a lot of maybe's and what if's)  Now that I know that I finally have it right, we're patiently waiting.  I have many friends who have gone through years and years of trying and nothing.  Resulting in many treatments, IVF's and they are still empty nesters.  My heart breaks for them.  My own niece and nephew are results of successful IVF treatments.  After many years of trying for my sister and her husband, we have 2 healthy and growing miracles in our family.       For some readers who are struggling with this here are some helpful blogs that I have found in the past week or so, please take the time to go through them, read them, share experiences and mostly I hope you find peace.     Explanation of what NIAW is all about.     Creating Motherhood    Just Stop Trying and It Will Happen   A post on Revolve with many blog posts about Infertility   The Hollie Rogue (her blog is amazing!) And she has one of my favorite bloggers guest posting today...   Amanda from A Royal Daughter-Her blog is about Infertility, life and serving the Lord.  It's a must read.  And not only that she's my inspiration for this post today!     Hairspray and High Heels (Amanda is guest posting there today too!)   Breaking Free     Please take the time and read through all of the resources...I sure did today.       I read this on Joel Osteen's Facebook this morning.  And it hit a little close to home:    

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Hard times may have held you down, but they will not last forever. When all is said and done, you will be better off than before.